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Trembling on my sofa,
In my head, the question ‘why?’
Somehow feeling lonely,
How much do I try?

Thinking about my life now,
Wondering what to do!
Was it worth the time and money,
Marrying you?

Only a few days have passed,
Since we tied the knot.
Life would be wonderful,
I naïvely thought.

Lying on my bed at night,
Hoping what I did was right!
Speculating if I should get used to it,
Or stand up and fight!

Fantasized about having a second home,
But never dreamed of it being like this.
Pulling out my hair wasn’t in the plan,
Neither was crying like this!

I always wanted ‘us’ to happen,
Currently, I wonder why!
What was I thinking,
With tears, now, in my eye?

Why don’t you understand me?
Why don’t you try and respect me?
Why do you allow people to insult me?
Am I not part of the family tree?

Yet I pray, God, give me strength,
Give me the courage and power.
To spend the rest of my life happily,
With you, every day and every hour.

PS: This was written by a newly wed. While everyone assumes that a newly wed is the most happiest in their initial stages of marriage, only they know what happens in their own homes. Let your mind out here because talking is the only way you won’t die slowly.


Cindy D'Silva
Cindy D'Silva
Cindy D'Silva, besides being a mother of two angels, is a belly dancer, writer and photographer. She loves partying, bowling and eating sushi. There is a detailed biography about her on the ABOUT ME page in case you would like to know more. :) You can like and follow her Facebook page to get all updates on the latest blogs and more:


  1. I really look forward to reading your posts Cindy. It’s such a breath of fresh air!

  2. Life is definitely not about fancy stuff, a lot of ups and downs. Very well written.

  3. Such great words…. life is never easy… for sme marriage brings happiness and for some it doesn’t.

  4. Pallavi says:

    Many newly married females can relate to this,but we should always discuss it with someone so this does not lead into depression.

    Very well written.

  5. May God give everybody the strength to fight their own wars. Loved the way you penned down your thoughts.

  6. Loved this poem. One can feel the words sink into the skin and pierce our heart.

  7. Ghunjain says:

    Thanks for sharing this prom I totally loved it…and read it repeatedly

  8. These lines have brought the truth that every girl goes through perhaps in such a beautiful way.

  9. You penned down all the emotions so beautifully. I just loved reading each & every line of the poem

  10. Sundeep says:

    Thanks for sharing this beautiful poem with us. I was chеcking constantly this blog and I’m really impressed!

  11. Humaira says:

    Amazing and beautiful post. The poem is so beautifully penned. This is so heartfelt and emotional poem. Great thoughts.

  12. presetly says:

    Such a great poem and i can definitely tell that any girl who read this poem can connect with this poem such an emotional poem and the poem is beautifully composed.

  13. Urvashi says:

    What a wonderful platform for a voice. Thanks for letting others share and helping them by listening to those unspoken words behind that smile and tear

  14. Nitya chawla says:

    I can’t believe this.. Such an emotional poem.. Well written you totally floored it.

  15. jenifer says:

    Such a sensitive and heart wrenching poem.
    Am sure many of them can relate to it.

  16. The poem is beautifully composed. Thanks for sharing it with us.

  17. Gayathri says:

    You are a great poet. Believe me even if we accept or not every girl has been in this stage.

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