Trembling on my sofa,
In my head, the question ‘why?’
Somehow feeling lonely,
How much do I try?
Thinking about my life now,
Wondering what to do!
Was it worth the time and money,
Only a few days have passed,
Since we tied the knot.
Life would be wonderful,
I naïvely thought.
Lying on my bed at night,
Hoping what I did was right!
Speculating if I should get used to it,
Or stand up and fight!
Fantasized about having a second home,
But never dreamed of it being like this.
Pulling out my hair wasn’t in the plan,
Neither was crying like this!
I always wanted ‘us’ to happen,
Currently, I wonder why!
What was I thinking,
With tears, now, in my eye?
Why don’t you understand me?
Why don’t you try and respect me?
Why do you allow people to insult me?
Am I not part of the family tree?
Yet I pray, God, give me strength,
Give me the courage and power.
To spend the rest of my life happily,
With you, every day and every hour.
PS: This was written by a newly wed. While everyone assumes that a newly wed is the most happiest in their initial stages of marriage, only they know what happens in their own homes. Let your mind out here because talking is the only way you won’t die slowly.